Monday, 22 December 2025

Pivotal

 It has been a very lean year in terms of writing. This is the first post I have done since way back in early January, and that was really a retrospective for 2024. So it's with a light heart and a cheery wave that I bid you hello to 2025 from the Mendip Rouleur, just as I'm about to turn tail and scarper into 2026. Perhaps next year will be different, I do have a set of very big plans for the year. But then again my road to now was paved with some good intentions for the last 12 months, and sadly, none of those have come to pass.



That's not to say those plans can not be resurrected at some point in the near future. I had intended to write a series of seven stories, loosely based on some of my ancestors true stories. Part of the preparation involved me wandering around old haunts of Spitalfields, and other places, imaging Huguenot and other ancestors past. The idea was to make them much more interesting that the reality probably was, and get Hollywood scriptwriters interested for a major seven-film deal that would see the next seven generations comfortably into the next couple of centuries. 



Not quite true, obviously, I just fancied writing something a bit more interesting than random stories of cycling and work. I thought I might paint a literal picture for each story too, in my own inimitable style. All of this would have been purely for my own creative interest, but who knows, some people might have been interested. Let me know, and I'll get onto Lazarus.

That said, the stories are not going to be written by anyone else, and just as a leaky tap will sometimes fix itself (especially in areas with hard water), so I feel these stories will one day just get written. The longer I leave it the more chance I have of being even more inspired in my painting. The Tate Modern has become a bit of a second London home for me this year, it's a veritable treasure trove for all those people who ask "yes, but is it art?".



Yes it is.

One thing that did get written, though not by me, was a BBC news story about my road crime reporting. It also made local and national news and a load of social media. That was my 15 minutes of very tiny fame, and although the headline was a bit lurid, and the lovely below-the-line comments were predictably vile, overall the piece did a good job of calling for safer roads. 



But life as they say, had other plans. Fortunately no major illness or injury this year, although I was too keen when I woke up in the middle of one night in May feeling like someone had hosed the bed down with a few hundred gallons of water. Nor did my mood improve when the Doctor spoke of crackles in the lungs and possible trips for scans and the like. But fortunately the chest infection was sorted within a couple of weeks and didn't interfere with my trip to the Ariege at the beginning of July.

Where it was inordinately hot for a few days. So much so, that the first couple of days' riding was confined to early mornings, before the mid-40s Centigrade temperatures made riding up mountains too uncomfortable. By the end of the week it had cooled to require the use of gilet and arm-warmers coming down in the mist from the Etang de Soulcem climb. Something that had been on my to-do list for over three years since I had contemplated going for a swim in the lake to escape from 2022. For once I am glad that plan didn't work out either.







Nor did illness stop me getting another 110km Dartmoor classic gold medal. It was a filthy day, blowing a gale and wet, so much so that I abandoned the quest for that elusive 100-mile gold, I simply wasn't enjoying it enough to want to make it worthwhile. Life is for the joy, and there will be another day to come.



It's been quite an eventful year in many other ways too. In August I was the victim of a road rage attack, which subsequently ended in the perpetrator admitting guilt and accepting a police caution. Much to my relief really, I really didn't want the hassle of a court case, even as a witness, and the bloke had no previous and admitted he'd acted out of character. Maybe he'd just never been caught before, but everyone deserves a second chance. In my moral maze they do anyway. This photo was taken about an hour before the event, how quickly things can turn? This is the way I'll choose to remember that day from now on.



The Mendip Rouleur family enjoyed a week in Malta in September, which was hot and relaxing, but combining three holidays into the second half of the year made for a long wait to get there, then a bit of added pressure in the back half. Still, the highlight of visiting Cambodia and Vietnam really made it all worth it, for us anyway, I think I'll be apologising to colleagues for some time to come. Either way, it brings home (yet again) how fortunate I am to have been born who I am, when I was, no-one is yet trying to murder me as a matter of policy.




Stewart Lee was funny but not at his best.

I also decided to step down from my role as a Chair of Trustees at Wesport, where I'd been working with Steve Nelson for five amazingly educational (for me) years, and take on a smaller role as a volunteer Trustee at Lifecycle - a charity that uses bikes in many ways to help people. Steve is one of the best leaders I have ever met, and he and the team at Wesport are doing amazing things to promote physical activity. I'm proud I played a very small part in that, and hope I can continue my contribution at Lifecycle.



This is not supposed to be one of those round-robin things, no really. They are all on Instagram these days, or podcasts. I think blogging is a dying medium. But I enjoy the process of tapping it all out, reviewing my pictures, remembering what the year contained. If someone else gets this too, then great. But I'm writing it just for me. I started writing about cycling many years ago, and of course we all know the cliches about cycling as a metaphor. But how about identity?


Maybe, but I'm far from convinced. It's just about keeping up isn't it? With friends, with the weather, and with yourself. So yes then.

Last year I ended up doing the Rapha Festive 500 by accident. Now I know you can not cycle 500km in eight days accidentally, but regular endurance cyclists will know a serendipitous occurrence when they see one, and that was one. This year, well I can say that the "plan" to make 2025 the year with the second greatest distance cycled didn't really enter my thoughts until early November. Randomly looking over my Annual Summary spreadsheet (doesn't everyone have one of these?) I noticed that, two week holiday at the end of November notwithstanding, if I continued cycling to work twice a week, with an added ride at the weekend to boot, I'd make 2025 the biggest year for ten years.

Back in 2015 I rode a staggering (for me) 18 rides of 200km or more, with a further 4 imperial centuries. Add to that a trans-Pyrenean ride, and plenty of commuting, well it all added up to 13,574 km on the bike. As I write this I'm about 1500 km short of that for this year, but given the downward trend of the last few years, it's pleasing to have overtaken some other big years in 2018 (Cent Col) and 2014 (also an Audax-heavy year).

It's all pretty meaningless though, what does it ultimately prove? I'm slower than I was then, do fewer big climbs, and spend much of my life cycling to and from work in Bristol. But it does prove one thing I think, and that has been a recurring theme for much of my life, and I hope will continue to do so for quite a while longer.

I just keep going. 

You can throw stuff at me - Brachial neuritis, knee injuries, or more psychological stuff like crises of mood or confidence - but I (so far) have always refused to let these things stop me forever. I did some of the best work of my professional life too this year, and although it's small beer by comparison to others, it reinforces my belief that I will not let the advance of decrepitude define me. One day I will be forced to give in and hang the bike up on the big rack up in the sky. Until then, I'll just keep trundling on in my own plodding way.

Which brings me to forty. Or more precisely, "sing this with me this is 40".

2026 represents another anniversary. Forty years since I started work, earned my own living and paid my taxes. Whilst I do not have forty paintings in my head, I very definitely have forty stories I'd like to write. I just have to figure out a way to tell them without getting sued. 

Let's hope I finally get round to writing them this time. I have been asking my new friend a lot of existential questions recently. How to get the cover off a boiler, the effect of statins on HbA1C and the violent crime demographics in the UK. But last week I asked "what is my life for?" and got a surprisingly insightful answer. No, I'm not going to share it, that is definitely just for me. But the word my friend suggested that best summed up 2025 for me was also very close to the mark. 

Pivotal, a year where your work, influence, and direction noticeably shifted - and set up what comes next.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. 





Thursday, 2 January 2025

What to do with the time that is given to us

 2025. I still can't believe it has arrived so soon. I remember sitting in my class at school one lunchtime and discussing how far away the year 2000 seemed. It still does, only in the wrong direction. No, actually it seems like yesterday, which makes 2025 even more worrisome. In another 25 years I will be (I keep telling myself this, I WILL BE!) older than both my parents were at their deaths by a hefty margin.

It's only 8 years since I set out to achieve the Rapha Festive 500 on a cool Christmas Eve. A fairly benign 200km DIY Audax kicked off the attempt, to be followed by three 100km before New Year's Eve. I had a desultory entry the following year, but I'd realised it's actually a fairly miserable experience if you are not careful. For a start, apart from occasional social rides, hardly anyone else wants to ride at Christmas. The weather is usually rubbish, and the daylight is fleeting. I've known people who go for the little and often strategy, to some success. But that "little" amounts to an average of 62.5km per day - every day if you ride the minimum - which is still around 2-3 hours outside at a time you want to be sociable. Or eating and drinking, or watching football. Or whatever.

If you go for the long-rides strategy, you commit to doing a fair amount of riding in the dark, and are usually pretty knackered on the days in between. Or at least I am.

So I had long ago decided it was an event ticked off, accomplished and not to be repeated, for the good of my Christmas sanity and the like. That doesn't mean I couldn't if I wanted, blah, blah, blah. It's not just physical, it's majorly psychological, in my opinion anyway.

That's not to say I have left compulsive behaviour behind. Quite the reverse. At the start of December I realised that because of the knee malarkey, I hadn't ridden a 161 km ride at all this year. So I thought I better put that right and made a few high-level plans. Then whilst chatting to Martyn about it, he offered to join me, which seemed a good excuse for a long ride at Christmas and plans were hatched into something a bit more concrete. Then we decided that if we were going to do 161 km we might as well do 200, and also knock off a bit of the | North Dorset Trailway Network, part of the former S & D Railway, into the bargain. 

Unfortunately at the 11th hour Martyn had to duck out to deal with a domestic crisis, and as I was all kitted out, I decided I might as well just go anyway. Last Friday was one of those horrible drizzle days, and visibility was very poor, so equipped in my Proviz commuting jacket for added safety, off I trundled. My route is 2024 or bust · Ride with GPS, and if I could have seen further than about 50 yards, I'm sure it would have been amazing. It was good to accomplish a 200 for the first time in over a year, and I'm sure I will do it again on a sunny day. At least there was virtually no wind, so I made reasonable time. I even found a couple of well-positioned, and very pleasant cafes, so the ride has everything really. Below is my one photo of the day, such were the unphotogenic conditions.


Cut to a couple of days later there was that social ride, with Jon, completing his Festive 500 by an amazing feat of Go Medium - no massive rides, but to do it with 2 days to spare is quite something. Then again, he's an amazing rider, so I'm not too surprised, and he did it at a very rapid pace too, on a road bike I'd guess, apart from one slightly shorter indoor ride. He joked that I still had time to do it, which elicited the usual response from me, ending in off I think, and I thought no more of it.

But then things happen don't they? I ended up doing a few more KMs on the Sunday than I'd planned. About 20 more actually, and combined with the solo gravel spin I'd done on Christmas Eve, and the short (7km) ride I did on a Watt bike at the gym on Monday night, I realised I was "only" about 150km short.

Cue next thought. I'd missed the Somerset 100 in May because of the knee injury but Mark Cox, organiser in chief gave me a12-month pass to get it done. What if I went out on NYE and did the 100km route from Sweets, with riding there and back, I could make it up to a 161km ride and hit the target by nightfall. So it's not my fault, what else could I do? I decided to use the gravel bike again, in fact all of my 503 outdoor km were on it, and although I'm not as good a rider as Jon, mine was a bit hillier I think. And outside. Just saying.

A few more photos from that day are below. It was a bit windier this time, but the weather was a bit brighter too, with fleeting sunshine. 



So what can I learn from all this? Compulsions aside, am I not done yet with ticking off meaningless events, honestly what is the actual point? True, I do feel amazingly pleased with myself, but honestly, where is this all going to stop? I thought I was so over this all by now but apparently not. Martyn keeps talking about Super Randoneur. I tell you now I am not tempted in the slightest. No really. Anyway, one of his events is the Brevet Cymru - the same day we play Spurs at home - and I have done it before. It's hard, why would I do that again?

I think the truth of it, if there is such a thing, is that I just like riding my bike. It isn't any more complicated than that. And that is an encouraging thought.